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TRANSFORMERS is so AWESOME! the movie! I tell you! Ahhh that movie sure did make my day it was just too good. Anyway i havn't been blogging much lately, getting lazy and just everytime i do think of blogging it's kind of late too EG. right about now, but it's holidays now so it should be okay. So you's have any plans these holidays? Me? Well.. let me see i want to get these done:
1. Study
2. Develop better habits
3. Cleaning
4. Reading
5. Boosting vocabulary
6. Go out/ have some fun with friends and family
7. Go shopping!
8. Start saving
9. Start exercising and shed off some kilos
10. Make a livejournal layout
and thats all i can think of for now, but theres just too much i want to do but i hope to get most of these done not just in the holidays but starting now would be great. So i said i would make a layout but i'm still havn't gotten to that yet.
I'm so glad my brother took me to watch Transformers today, it would've been such a shame if i didn't go because i would've missed out on how awesome it is since i rarely watch movies now and even if you tell me how good it is i probably won't watch it till 10 million years later.
It was fun i must admit! There were so many people at the movies tonight and hence we ended up with crappy seats ==;
After we were going to go get some coffee, sounded fun but we didn't end up going because one of us had work but that was okay. It made me realise even more how fun it is to go out at night having the freedom to do what you like after like going out for coffee or going somewhere after but i don't have that option yet but it'll come eventually.
Ahhhh, i really need to catch up on sleep! I'm starting to gain pimples. I think i really have jinxed myself, everything i never had and was envied for i have now gotten. My skin is absolutely hidious! (that looks wrong, ahh see how bad my spelling is now) anyway. I should really start my composition. I've been having inspiration hit me constantly on and off and it's been irritating me along with other things. I guess it was my period or something that's been making me feel so EMOtional this week. But i'm fine now i hope.
Hmm, alright keeping this short! So i shall end it here goodnight fellow readers! (if theres any that exist lol.)
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I thought i saw an opportunity to express myself, but you took that away from me - possibly to spare me from pain. I really felt a sudden need to explain myself, it made me see how i really felt. As foolish as i feel for i am unable to decipher myself but slowly i learn't to see.
You told me i changed, and i believe you. You said i am different - do other people see me that way too? I don't know whether i, being different is a good thing; somehow i do and then i don't. I always wanted to be different, but the strangest feeling from it made me not want to and so i blend with the crowd. I admitt, i don't agree with how some people my act at times but for me to follow, is stupid. I think i'm stuck in a mistaken identity - i always have. One minute, i want to be the most different girl and the next i wanted to be just like "her" or "her" or "her". Growing up must have confused me. I always felt the need to "fit in" and so i've blended with the crowd. I am no leader. But i have a will to be a leader. To speak my mind, to be understood, be seen and known - but most of all be accepted. I may seem as though i am not accepting but i am the one feeling unaccepted. Maybe i am appearing a little selfish.
Today, i was able to show sides of me i rarely show because people around here don't act that way - should that even matter?
The odd side of me, that didn't care what they thought of me, just SAY IT.. even if you do look like a LOSER. It felt tgood, and you liked me better this way - so did i. I've learn't that i no longer share common interest with my friends, and honestly it shouldn't matter but it isn't satisfying to oneself. I am unable to express the things i love, the people i love with someone that shares these same interests. I always wanted a most best friend that enjoyed the same things as me, someone who does things with me, who sticks with me. A mate that puts me first and someone i could put first. Those friendships we see on T.V. Instead, we are unable to show ourselves, we are unable to share things - we feel as though we judge each other.
I'm starting to think that maybe i should stop caring. where would i get if i did? Where would i be? How would i be? I know exactly how i would be. I wouldn't be the person i wanted to be. I wouldn't be able to try things i wanted to try. But to experience new things on your own isn't exactly exciting. Wheres sharing the excitement together? - I AM FLYING SOLO ~
Speaking of me changing, made me think, could it be the emotions i felt that have scarred me? I wonder...
I no longer have those emotions i once did for you, but through all that drama i've grown to be independant and closed off from the world; even myself. I miss those times we had when we were great friends, do you? Or have you forgotten them? I'll always remember special moments and even though i've hurt; i've healed. But am i really healed? Shouldn't i go back to the way i was if i was? I didn't fight it - i let it freeze me up till i was numb. I do not feel anything.
I pretend things are okay, when their not. I smile after i''ve cried - even when i am crying and i smile randomly, i joke to hide things. Does it mean i am happy? Or does it mean i am trying to be happy? All i know is, i am fine. I'm living life as i can and i am no longer dwelling. Even if i smile randomly, it doesn't mean i am not happy because i am. Things are going well, but at times you begin to wonder...
AIIYAHH.. Whatever i typed up there, i no longer knows if that makes sence because I don't normally make sence LOL. Anyway today, it rained like GAH~ CHAT! And tonight is supposed to be that crazy wind and rain or even storm thing - but it's not storming thats great!
Went livo today for guitar lessons with FAG. Bought some tops and all but it's so sad that all the good sales were gone =(
I definitely failed my maths test today T.T I was expecting that. My composition? AH.. it isn't going as well as i thought it was. I just got so sick of what i came up with before. Guitar, well i still need to cut my nails! And i am too lazy to do anything including PRACTICING! ==; I AM THE MOST LAZIEST GIRL ALIVE.
Each day my obsession for Ji Yong grows even more - it's getting scary. If he found out, GEEZ he'd be avoiding me if he ever met me. LOL. This is so sad... i love him to bits too lol. I'm really good at being a stalker HAHA! Jks, don't freak out i won't stalk you!
I didn't do Tutor homework AGAIN, oh dear please kill me. I guess tomorrow lunchtime it is library time! Must get cracking on homework.
I really need to go winter shopping! More like i want too but it is getting cold. So Everyone keep warm okay! Don't get sick.
Ahh, net is really ruining me again. I'm sleeping later now and i'm not getting tired at 10pm anymore. I think i should STOP this! I say this all the time.. it's SO SO BAD! But i mean it this time! Tomorrow after tutor means do tutor homework! THEN, if it's not late already fix up my school work, then Tv and sleep. Hope THAT goes to plan, nothing ever goes to plan. AHH... Well i should get to bed now it's getting late. Goodnight =)
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Hi! =)
I just thought i'd do some blogging before i go head off and do some work.
I'd just like to say WOOOOOOOOO! I have wireless again in my room! :D I can net while im warm and tucked in bed hehhe.. BUT bad thing is, i won't sleep early anymore and i'll wake up late for school (like TODAY ==; ) So i guess i'll have to try my best and limit my net time - It's all about self-control.
I got my midcourse report today, wasn't that good but i expected it. I'm quite disappointed with my Business Studies marks though, not what i expected at all! I thought i was ranked second atleast, but i'm coming forth =(
I guess the teacher really based it on the half yearly exam. I thought i atleast deserved a better mark than i got though.
Economics was quite pleasing for me, the best that i've got besides photography. Music, isn't all that well aswell but i've really pulled myself down so i guess i shall work harder this time! And REALLY do it for real. My family and myself shall be my motivation, and by the end of preliminary reports i'll try my best and get 90's! :D
This week is quite an overwhelming for me, and it's a bit everywhere due to the public holiday which i was so looking forward to but it didn't turn out as i planned - like everything else. I really need to start organising myself, it's quite annoying really.
Right now, i shouldn't be blogging or online at all or watching Neighbours, i should be doing my English assignment which is due on Friday, which i'm having problems with =(
English is such a bummer now, i really would like to enjoy english but it's so hard right now, i'm struggling a lot.
My image seems to be something important right now. I'm motivated to lose some weight. My parents seem to be watching my weight, i know they are. They stop nagging me about it, that's great but i know they think i'm fat. I think parents can sometimes be so contradictive, but they mean well. Reminds me i need to do some exercise later on tonight. Aza Aza Fighting! Sora shall succeed! :D I shall i shall! Hhehe.
Still need to put some time to learning Korean, i know, you's probably think what for? Because i'm not even korean or anything but it's something i want to do, it'll make things easier for me so i read stuff online :D Because i am quite a Korean Fanatic! =X
Aww i wish Big Bang could come to Australia, but i know i won't be able to make it to their concert =( But i would so love to meet them! Especially GD! My Ji Yongie! <3
I watched part of their First concert i think it was, the beginning was awesome! How they just jumped out and did some dance moves :D
But omg! SO SO CUT! That girl was soo OMG LUCKY! Those boys so did a serenade for her and she had to pick. OMG i wish i was her =(
I'd love to have GD hold my hand! haha! ^^"
I admitt GD isn't THE BEST singer but his such a cute rapper! Hahah my friends think i have no taste I KNOW THEY DO! Hahah but hey pfft.. i don't care! Him all too myself! :D hehhe. Pshh.. my Dorky BF beats Wonbin LOL! I never really had a thing for him though haha strange huh? My friends did but not me hah i was always obsessing about other guys that they had no interest in. Ohwell sall good all for me me me :D mwuahaha! I sound Boy crazy? YES! I am boy crazy for YI YONG that DORK!
MY poor Yi Yongie, he seems to be having such a hard time and all from what i've read. Aww i love you~ Keep smiling! Baysha! :D
Anyway it's probably time for me to head off and end things here. Excuse my current plain layout! Keeping it simple for now till something better comes along =)
lots of love.
xx SORA.
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SO SO COLD =(
I can't stand it! MY hands are freezing, my feet are freezing EVERYTHING is frozen.
So today i didn't go to school! But hey! Dad allowed it but i'm sad to know that i've missed on on tripple mathematics and i found out they started a new topic! GAH~ This means catching up.
Today, things didn't go as planned. Because it rained so hard and i didn't want to walk to school nor my dad i planned to do some maths and study and homework and blah blah.. but THAT definitely didn't go to plan as usual ==; I sat online pretty much all day. But i did do something useful kind of? LOL well, remember how i said i wanted to make my own layout? Well, i was doing some research on that but i am so noob i'm quite disappointed in myself and so lazy that i couldn't really be bothered to read those tutorials which therefore left me with nothing.
BUT! Atleast i definitely did ONE thing useful, which is learn guitar haha! I really do need to keep practicing but i'm somewhat happy because i'm starting to get the songs now :D JOY JOY!
I've been finding some new music so i can start uploading for you's but i really do want to get a new layout up first my blog looks somewhat messy to me at the moment. So must GET THIS RIGHT! So sorry but it'll be a while before i get up the new layout and start the mp3 rotation. So you're just left with reading about my daily life for now, how fun fun? Haha yeah i know not really..
I need CHING CHING! Gosh that's so teeniebopper talk? Ohwell. Anyway i'm sure we all are a little short on cash but i really want to go shopping. Currently in need of winter clothing!
ESPECIALLY gloves, beanie & scarf! Definitely have to be cute! :P Hahaha!
So mummy, i'm sorry i'm not going to wear those ones you claim you have somewhere.
I'm currently in the process of composing something for my Music Assessment. I personally think i'm going well, BUT i only just realised that i have no idea how to tab these guitar notes i'm playing, because i am not playing specific chords more like strumming single notes?
It's going to look so strange, i don't know if you can even do that? But then if you're composing you can do anything you like right? Theres no right or wrong or whatever right? I think i have an idea now how to tab these notes i'm playing. Wish me luck guys!. :D
I'm also having trouble on writing lyrics for the song i'm composing. I've experienced quite a bit in my life and felt a lot of emotion but i don't know what to sing about. I know i want to sing something people can feel? Maybe something inspirational? I don't know theres just too much; i am getting over excited.
Yesterday i went to an SRC district meeting, it went better than i had expected it to go. Met some new interesting people, too bad i couldn't eat as much as i could because DUDE FREE FOOD! :P Damn ulcer! You ruined it for me ! =(
Things are doing okay in general i guess except school should be up to a higher standard for me so maybe i should end it here and go do some work? YES.. actually no, i really can't be bothered T.T
Anyway i'm getting distractions again! But good ones ! :D ahah soo toodles everyone! <3
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Hello my little friends =)
I am quite tired and starting to get sore from gym today even though i did not do much ==; I AM VERY LAZY I KNOW!.. But i must scratch that habit. Thanks to Tony you motivated me to work a little harder by challenging me in a bike race and i know you probably let me win just so i wouldn't kill myself but it's that spirit that get's me pumped up so thanks ^^"
Today, nothing interesting happened but i can definitely start to feel winter kicking in; I hate Winter =( I REALLY do!
A thought just popped into my head, i'm thinking about Extention Mathematics and where i am there. I don't know if i should drop down to 2Unit Mathematics or not, i mean i know i can manage in 3 Unit, i just have to work harder and be more dedicated- which i really want to do, just i havn't gotten myself up to do it yet. Good news is, i actually started to fix my school work up so that's a first step right? :D
Geez, i think i have too much of an obsession for my Asian Artists, i realised this even more today when i was given a Survey during Roll Call today and it was about celebrities and how it effected you. I didn't fill it out properly because i didn't know who was my favourite Celebrity, crazy huh? I don't even know who my favourite celebrity is, well my favourite singer who sings English or anything Australian or American- looks like it's all Asian for me now. But i shall update myself on the English songs and so on. Have i said this already? LOL Anyway.
My obsession for Big Bang has RETURNED! I love G-Dragon!
Ji Yong! It's your goofy style that i love about you! <3
The thing i feel kind of bad for about Big Bang is the fact i only pay attention to a few of the members
1st - G-Dragon <3
2nd - Seung Ri
3rd - T.O.P
And the rest... hahaa how mean aye? Ngaww sorry boys! But you guys are still awesome!
Okay, i am freezing cold right now so i'm going to leave it here. Goodnight! =)
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Hiii! So this is my very first LJ, i thought i'd try this out. I havn't written a blog in quite a while now.
GOSH.. it's about time that i finally got the layout up! It took me quite a while and to figure out that it was something so so simple ==; By the way, this is just a temporary layout for now, when i can i'll give photoshop another go and see if i can make my very first LAYOUT! How awesome will that be ay ay? :D
Hehe...
Well, it's Sunday Afternoon and i should really be doing my homework and yet i'm here online but blah forget it i'll just stay online a little while long because i'm just so proud of getting this damn layout up lol.
Talk about NUB huh?
So it's Mid 2007 now, and i have not done much. I'm not improving in my school work like i said i would, i do not study like i said i would and i'm even lazier than i used to be even though i said i would not be, geez i really do need to pull myself together (Which i love to tell myself all the time ==; )
In my preliminary year at the moment and OH i officially became a senior on Friday when i first got my red jumper :D kind of itchy though and my eyes arr not used to them on me yet but hey it's not too bad.
Guitar lessons are going okay so far, though i have not been practicing which is VERY bad, i should be practicing that now too for a fact. Talking about guitar lessons and music theres a local talent going on and i'm considering it this year like every other year that it's on but it'll be my last chance to get myself out there and do it, i am quite scared though to be honest and i am definitlely NOT prepared for it so if i do decide to do it i better start preparing now. At the moment i have a Music assessment which is a composition assessment. I think i've decided to do it on my own, since i'm much of an independant person with this kind of stuff and people wouldn't want to work with me anyway because i can be a little tough to work with and so on. This time this composition sounds pretty good i like it! To me it sounds very nice and meaningful, i just hope i can come up with nice lyrics with it, so not a bad job i'm doing so far :D
I can not wait for the long weekend that is, the Queens Birthday! Yes! NO SCHOOL! And i can't wait for holidays either! Geez, what happened to the love for school ay? I remember those days...
I'm considering putting up a mini music rotation here, for my Kpop, Cpop and Jpop stuff, but that means i must update my music!
But i'll see what happens with that.
Awww.. i really wish i wasn't such a photoshop and web-designing NUB i remember my younger days net 24/7 and always web-designing and all, i honestly think i was much better at it back then than i am now ==; lame ay? I should start reading tutorials and stuff so i can actually make my own layouts and all, if only i wasn't such a lazy B*ST*RD
Hmm.. what else do i have to say? Well, theres a District SRC meeting on Wednesday and i was asked to go in place of Kelly and i can't believe myself but i agreed to it. I'm a little nervous because i've never been to these things and i don't normally speak my mind due to past experiences and all, but i guess it'll be a good experience, even better if i do decide to try out for school captain next year. I'll try my best to speak confidently i know i am capable of it because i can be quite a loud mouth :D haha.
At the moment i'm chatting to an old friend that i used to chat online to and we were talking about the subjects we did in school. He currently does Japanese Continuers and it reminded me on how i wanted to do a language course. I wanted to learn Korean and Chinese first and then Japanese or something but there was only Korean Continuers so that was out and i wanted to learn Korean more than i did Chinese. But even though i did not choose to do an open high school course i decided to learn Korean at home on my own. I havn't been practicing much, like i havn't been doing anything else much but i hope i'll actually get somewhere with it. Korean isn't as hard as i thought it would be, it's quite easy to understand i actually battled the alphabet and how to read and write but i still have to memorise the alphabet lol.
Anyway i think i should really stop it here, i'm getting distracted again - AS USUAL ==; lol.
Toodles. <33
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